The real voyage of discovery consists of not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes. - Marcel Proust
Hello!
Guess who this is.
Nope. Hindi ako si Yomz. Close, but not quite. Hehe.
Tama na nga paglalaro. Si Nicole 'to. Gulat kayo 'no?
Anyway, so why am I here? Bakit biglang napunta sa akin ang kwento? Well... Simple. Because a story like this has to have two sides. And maybe... it's my time to tell you about who I am. Who I really am.
Some of you might resent me or maybe disappointed because of all that happened. Maybe some of you will say na "pinaasa lang ni Nicole si Yomz." That is so not true. Let me tell you a secret. I fell for him. That's the truth. But do I love him? Well. It depends on what you mean by love. If you define love as a feeling, as an emotion, then yeah. There was definitely something between me and him.
But I don't think that's what love really is. Haha. Sorry kung medyo preachy ako. 'Just want to tell you how I feel.
Anyway, where were we? Oh yeah. Well, if love is an emotion, then a relationship has a very unstable foundation. Emotion is ever changing and volatile. And if you build a relationship on that foundation, it won't last. It would fall just like a stack of cards on a windy day. Hindi ganun ang pag-ibig. Hindi ganun ang magmahal.
That's why I believe that love is a choice first, an emotion second. Love entails a lot of freedom. And choosing to love someone is and will always be the highest value you could give to freedom. Ang pagpili sa mamahalin mo ang kukumpleto sa kalayaan. Kasi kung kapalaran lang ang pipili ng mamahalin mo... then it destroys your most basic freedom. If destiny were to choose the person that you love, than life would have lost its meaning. Sorry. Medyo magulo. Pero 'yun lang talaga nararamdaman ko.
So. Sorry to bore you all to death. But then, this is now my story to tell. By telling you some of the things about me, then maybe you could understand who the "angel" (am I so vain to use that word or what?) really is.
Let me get a few things straight first. I'm not leaving the door closed for Yomz. He still has a chance. However, it would take a minor miracle for him to rekindle what we had. To be perfectly honest, those tumultuous weeks with him were actually one of the best stretches of my 24-year life. And I would forever cherish those days. At kung matanda na ako at kulu-kulubot (Haha. Kung ganoon na kaya ako ngayon, makikinig pa ba kayo sa akin?), isa iyon sa mga ikukwento ko sa aking mga apo. Promise.
So, umpisahan na ba natin? Marahil ay naiinip na kayo sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Pero may kwento rin ako. Tulad ni Yomz. May mga bagay rin akong nais sabihin at ipaliwanag sa inyo. Tulad ni Yomz. Oh, Game. Tara. Pasok na kayo sa mundo ko.
Ako si Nicole. And welcome to my life...
Hello!
Guess who this is.
Nope. Hindi ako si Yomz. Close, but not quite. Hehe.
Tama na nga paglalaro. Si Nicole 'to. Gulat kayo 'no?
Anyway, so why am I here? Bakit biglang napunta sa akin ang kwento? Well... Simple. Because a story like this has to have two sides. And maybe... it's my time to tell you about who I am. Who I really am.
Some of you might resent me or maybe disappointed because of all that happened. Maybe some of you will say na "pinaasa lang ni Nicole si Yomz." That is so not true. Let me tell you a secret. I fell for him. That's the truth. But do I love him? Well. It depends on what you mean by love. If you define love as a feeling, as an emotion, then yeah. There was definitely something between me and him.
But I don't think that's what love really is. Haha. Sorry kung medyo preachy ako. 'Just want to tell you how I feel.
Anyway, where were we? Oh yeah. Well, if love is an emotion, then a relationship has a very unstable foundation. Emotion is ever changing and volatile. And if you build a relationship on that foundation, it won't last. It would fall just like a stack of cards on a windy day. Hindi ganun ang pag-ibig. Hindi ganun ang magmahal.
That's why I believe that love is a choice first, an emotion second. Love entails a lot of freedom. And choosing to love someone is and will always be the highest value you could give to freedom. Ang pagpili sa mamahalin mo ang kukumpleto sa kalayaan. Kasi kung kapalaran lang ang pipili ng mamahalin mo... then it destroys your most basic freedom. If destiny were to choose the person that you love, than life would have lost its meaning. Sorry. Medyo magulo. Pero 'yun lang talaga nararamdaman ko.
So. Sorry to bore you all to death. But then, this is now my story to tell. By telling you some of the things about me, then maybe you could understand who the "angel" (am I so vain to use that word or what?) really is.
Let me get a few things straight first. I'm not leaving the door closed for Yomz. He still has a chance. However, it would take a minor miracle for him to rekindle what we had. To be perfectly honest, those tumultuous weeks with him were actually one of the best stretches of my 24-year life. And I would forever cherish those days. At kung matanda na ako at kulu-kulubot (Haha. Kung ganoon na kaya ako ngayon, makikinig pa ba kayo sa akin?), isa iyon sa mga ikukwento ko sa aking mga apo. Promise.
So, umpisahan na ba natin? Marahil ay naiinip na kayo sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Pero may kwento rin ako. Tulad ni Yomz. May mga bagay rin akong nais sabihin at ipaliwanag sa inyo. Tulad ni Yomz. Oh, Game. Tara. Pasok na kayo sa mundo ko.
Ako si Nicole. And welcome to my life...
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